I don't want to grow up!~

i don't want to grow up!!!
i don't wanna do the things people decide for me!
i don't want to listen to their annoying speech!
i don't want to look at their stinking smile!
i don't wanna see their sickening face!
I DON'T WANT TO!
I DON'T WANNA!
I refuse to grow up!!!!~

Am I going backwards?

Am I going backwards? Not wanting to let go of something in the past. Not wanting to move on to the future. Not wanting to take a step ahead of me. Am I really really really going backwards? I can’t stand the sight of him going away with someone else. He is slipping from my fingers. Have I not come to realize that truth? Or just not wanting to admit the truth? Which one? Who knows? Maybe there's something behind it and maybe not.

Alone. Now and Forever.

Alone.
A word that creep almost everyone on earth.
The word "ALONE" portray sadness, loneliness, heart-breaking, hard-to-breath kind of feelings..
Alone.
Drown.
Hopeless.

Which colour do the word "ALONE" gives?
Is it blue?
white?
red?
green?
yellow?
or..
BLACK?!

Alone.
One.
All by yourself.